At My Wits End!

I have been finished school for over a week now and in that time I have had my head constantly stuck in my textbooks trying to cram any bit of last minute knowledge.  It's only when you have time to think that you realise just how much more work you need to do before the exams start and the closer they get the less prepared you feel. 

 

In the past couple of days I feel like I've hit a brick wall.  I feel like my head can not cope with any more information, like it's full to the brim and no matter how much more knowledge I try to stuff in it just will not stay.  This makes me more frustrated and stressed.  I spent almost six hours studying my Home Economics Elective and then when I went to look at some exam questions I wasn't able to answer any of them.  It was as if I hadn't studied it at all and that I had just wasted six hours of my life doing nothing!

 

It's taking me twice as long to learn things now because information will not stick in my head and sometimes I just stare at my books not able to find the will to read any of the words on the page.  I feel like a robot who has seen better days.  I can't carry out my functions properly anymore.  I get up every morning feeling like I've not had any sleep only to then delve into hours upon hours of laborious study.  I can't take it anymore!  I am mentally and physically struggling.  The sooner these exams are over the better because I feel like I am very close to a mental breakdown!

 

I'm probably making a mountain out of a molehill but at the moment the Leaving Cert is the air I breathe.  I really want to do well and get my top preference for college.  I might be doubting my ability and putting too much pressure on myself and no matter what anyone says to me it doesn't help.  My parents telling me the Leaving Cert isn't important isn't helping.  They don't seem to understand the stress I feel right now.

 

I think for the next couple of weeks I will need to adopt a better mind-set.  I know more than I think I do and I just have to convince myself of that.

 

Well, that is my rant over for now.  I swear this blog is the only thing that keeps me going sometimes because it's a place where I can just pour my heart out.  Hopefully the next time I post something I will be feeling a little bit more positive but until then...

 

I'll se ya when I see ya!